My Birthday

 

My Birthday is here again.

Here I go again, turning another year older.  I will be 44 this year,  number I have been looking forward to. Of course I thought I would be a full time worker or a full time grandmother.  But no I am unemployed and still do not have any grandbabies.  UGH!  So I look for work daily and I started my own business cleaning. Of course I only have Tom as a client and have been actively searching for other clients, I know I could search harder but had to wait to have a car.  Now I have a car, and I have the flyers done (now to get a lot of copies made). I will be putting my flyers out there this weekend.  Hoping for some local work. Signed up with a web site to help me find some clients.  Thank god that is free, cause I have applied for many jobs and not one, not one response. I know I am not good as selling myself, unless you meet me in-person.  Than it is a whole new game.

My brother has moved back to his wife in DeRidder, LA.  I wish he had not.  My father will miss him the most and I know my mother wishes he was still around.  He really helped me with mom by visiting her regularly.  More then I expected from him.  I love my brothers and never new when we were growing up that we would ever be this far apart.  I feel like I don’t even know them anymore.  I miss the days of having them around.  Wish I had taken advantage those days with my brothers.  Feel like I will never have that time with them again.  They both live in the south and so far from me.  One day I hope to be close to them again.

Well, these days lately have been full of all sorts of feelings.  Way to many to share with you all.  Well way to many to type about.  LOL

Okay I have babbled long enough.  This writing is not easy, cause I just feel as if I am complaining or I am truly boring…..

Well til next time.

Teryl

I can’t Say!

Just can’t seem to find the words that are needed for me to keep up with a blog.  Not much has been happening, yet so much has happened.  My thing is what I want to say is about others not me.  Well damn that says a lot about me. I guess I am just frustrated to the point of silence.  I can not say how I feel about a certain couple, I can’t complain about choices that are being made hastily.  Just wish the best for them and all I do is to be there to pick up the pieces when it all falls apart, or hope for it to end with better understanding and not sadness!

Frustrated!

Just frustrated with so much that I can’t even think of just one thing to write about this week.  I am already behind in my writing a weekly post but I am just so flustered with so much all at once I can’t focus.  So I am skipping a couple of post here just to hopefully be able to find one good thing to write about.  Something positive.

The Sun, The Snow

I love the snow, I love a snowy morning. The sunlight coming down on the snowy front yard makes me happy. It feels so peaceful and the calmness I feel just looking out the window is incredible. I have no desire to be out in it, but I do wish I was young enough to have the energy to truly enjoy it and at least make a snowman. I see the snow and I wish for a fire in my fireplace. I watch the birds come n go from the trees. Wish I had some bird food for them. The snow is falling again, the sun is not shining anymore. The wind has picked up again. As I watch the changes happen outside, it makes me feel all warm n cozy in my home with my hubby. I am truly blessed to have this home to have this husband to have the children I have. Even though they are grown, they are still my baby boys. I love life.

Single mom of two gets scammed out of car!

It is so hard for me to understand the young people of today! I know I made many stupid and unnecessary mistakes when I was young.  But Damn I know I was never that dumb, or was I?

I just find it hard to believe that in todays age of technology that someone could be so naive to the way of a simple transaction of trading vehicles.  A Title for A Title, Right!  LOL  Wrong!  She had a title of a non-running vehicle and he had a salvage bill of sale to a running vehicle.  Sounded good to her. So she does the trade, Nooooooo!  I wish she was not so afraid of asking me (cause I would of said not without a title) for advice on the before she signed over her car to some strange young man. Not only that he barely can write his own name yet make a real signature. He is not born of this country, but that doesn’t matter to me, it is a matter that he can’t be a decent human being to a naive young lady.

It really gets me all pissed off that one person can so easily take advantage of another person. So now she has to go and get the car inspected by state patrol and then see if she will even be able to one day put it into her name.  Even if so she still can’t get a title for three years because it was a salvage title and that is how they do things here in the state of WA.  UGH! So she is basically screwed, unless it is a good car and runs and drives and passes inspection and she plans on keeping it for three years.  God I hope she can pass and get this done.  She really needs to have a car that runs.  I feel bad for her but then I do not, she knows way too many people that she could of gotten advice from but she chose to go about this alone and she took the risk and this is what she got.  All the headache cause she didn’t want to hear anyone say no not a good deal, She just wanted a running car.  Oh well she is on her own now.  I tried to help her today and well there was nothing I could do. $65.00 for a State inspection, and over a $100.00, if it passes, to register it.  So all in all it will come to about $185.00 with tax and fees, the lady said at the DOL.  Lesson Learned I hope for her!

My Own Business

I have always thought I would own my own business.  Of course I thought that I would of had an office or a store front.  But in todays way of doing things and with the cost of everything, it is more likely to be out of my own home.  so I have finally started my own business!

  It is really a scary feeling, yet so exciting to know that I will be the one making the decisions and choices.  I am doing this because I feel that I would be able to not only help myself make some money but I can also help some of my friends who are always looking for work.

This adventure so far is not costing a lot.  It is however making my hubby a little nervous.  He just doesn’t see himself being able to do this, but thinks it is great that I am.  Everyone is like oh that is great, good luck, and I am like Yes it is great and so exciting.  I can see the look in some of their eyes, like wow cleaning company really?  I know I can do this, I am just nervous about having make certain choices,  like how to request the value of my time and not feel like I am over charging!  I also have to learn how to do certain things.  Such as stripping the old wax off the floors and applying new wax.  

I really want to do more office cleaning then home cleaning.  But with the other two girls I have lined up to work for me can take the home jobs and I will try to keep up with the office type jobs.  I am looking forward to this next adventure in my life.  I will also be reapply to Walmart in a week, just to see if they are wanting to rehire me.  Then I will decide if I want to work for them also.  You never know I can run my business by having the girls doing the work and yet still get to work a register.  I really do like to work with the general public.  People are so interesting, even the rude ones.  

And I am off to the races, I have so much to do!

 

 

My Own Business

Started my own Business!

I have never been good at writing!

I have tried many times since I was about 11 yrs., to keep a diary or a personal journal.  It never took. I would quit after just a few days maybe make a month.  Just felt that what I had to say to myself was not necessary.  Now with the type of writing (blogging) seems to be different even more scary, cause I can make it public or keep it private.  I figure public is the way to go, make myself more vulnerable and let myself be heard.  I figured if I am going to take the time to type it out and actually put it into writing I might as well be heard.  Never have I thought that I would have much to say, but as I am told more often then not, I seem to have a lot to say.  

I do not have the best spelling abilities, thank god for spell-check.  I loose my concentration quickly and forget often of what exactly I was saying or trying to say.  I am trying to stay on topic when I actually have a topic and not just winging it. I just want to make myself better at expressing how I feel about things or how I think of things.  Not really caring so much any more of what people think about it.  If you know me and I mean really know me (not many do, but they think they do) I am really the type who doesn’t give a damn what you think of me, but I hate to have people not like me.

I do talk a lot, again I am told this from time to time.  I am bold, loud and very proud of my family.  Not like we have had any major accomplishments, but at least we are not in and out of jail or my kids are not hoodlums and doing drugs.  Both boys are men now working and living with there better halves whether married or not.  No matter to me.  If you have committed yourself to someone and you are true to that, a damn piece of paper from the state make no difference to me. I believe if you love someone then you should tell them often, I raised my boys with those words I LOVE YOU daily, many times a day it is said.  I couldn’t even count how many times a week I say it to them.  I say it nearly every time I talk to them on the phone and every time I see them.  I always say I love you and be safe.  They know this is my way of saying stay out of trouble or I will kick your butt.  

Well, again I have wondered off topic, this will be a shot little blog. Tired and thinking of joining my hubby in bed, of course he has been asleep now for over two hours, but that is normal.  He gets up before 4 am and I don’t rise until 7am or 8am.  So off to try to actually get some sleep at a descent hour, and not lay in bed over thinking everything.  Yeah right! 

Good night

Myself trying to write in 2014!

I am one to say a lot, I am one to do what I think I can, and I am one who is to scared to give it my all.

I get lost in thought as I type, I can not seem to keep on track.

They say, that we are our own worst critics!  Now that is so true.  We are also the ones who stop ourselves from achieving our best. When all is going well, I don’t stop to think how, but I just go until something stops me and makes me think, WTH! It was going so well, why has it suddenly changed.

I enjoy taking care of others and working outside the home.  I do not enjoy being bored and all alone. I love animals, even though they make me sneeze and wheeze! I love kids, even the ones that are not mine. I am a controlling type person (so I am told). I enjoy having some one to share and experience things in life with.  My Husband is the greatest thing that has happened to me since I have had my boys. I enjoy being with him and having him to share life with.

My husband says that; If he and I were not together, that he would probably be dead.  I hate hearing him talk like that.  I Love Him with all of my Heart! I feel I would not be a very good person if we had not found each other.  I am so glad that I asked him to stay with me,  FOREVER!

He makes me feel loved and complete.  I hope I make him feel loved and complete?! I truly enjoy his company and wish that we had more time together.  But work is just a factor in life that keep most people from the ones they love.  I am happy that he is the bread winner, I think a man truly doesn’t feel whole (cause of our society) with out being the one who provides for the family. Sad cause a man is a man on how he treats his family not how much he can provide.

It takes two to tango, so they say! So it should take two to  care for a family.  I know there are many single parents our there and that is great, if that is truly how they want it to be.  I never wanted to be a single parent, I was one for a few years and I tried to give my boys all they needed and provide for them.  But I was not as successful as I am with my husband by my side.  I sometimes wish I could go back into time and change just a few of my choices.  But if I was actually able to change the past would it truly make for a better now?

Sex, Drugs, and the pursuit for happiness in all the wrong places! That maybe the next thing to write about.

I told you in the beginning, I get lost in typing, as you can see I can think faster then I can type.  LOL

Well, this will be all today.  I am hoping I will be back here more then not.  I really want to write, I am hoping I can stick to this.

Teryl is my name and typing I can do, but writing is just never been my game.

Til next time!